blogger is increasingly becoming a plce where I come when I cannot handle whats going on inside me and have no control over what is goin on outside....
Very few people read my blog now, the old faithfuls are also infrequent now and that leaves me with a few readers who continue to read my rubbish..
But its good , i'll tell you why.
Coz like if u have loads of people reading ur blog then expectations rise..ppl start judging you...I mean it can get weird at times....
so i like it better this way.
'Blogging all the way' is increasingly becoming my own space , and the few people who frequent are people I have known for a considerable time(by blogger standards :) ) so they are most welcome to have a luk at whats goin on my mind..
You know life is all about I, me , myself. It really should be also.One should never give nay one importance.NO ONE.
Cuz if you do that, you tend to have expectations( well..i do) and then obviously ppl do not live up to those expectations and then you end up feeling bad...
Akele hi sahi hai....
akele aatein hain, akele hi jayenge....
I am spending increasing amount of time away from people....Officialy speaking I just have one friend in college and she is not in my branch also, other than that I have Latika who calls me up regularly( thank gaawd for that ) and in trying to keep herself sane ends up keeping me sane....
We meet rarely, our schedules are funny..my exams begin and hers end types..
I wish we could get together( u know, I still spell 'together' as to-get-her ) more often..but well...that does not seem to happen..plans are made and nothing comes out of it..
thats life I guess...
Its funny..i have known her since class 7..and yet in all these years..i have NEVER fought with her .Never. Ever.
Two girls not fighting?????
thats like the 10th wonder type of a thing...maybe cuz our temperaments are compliementary...
But anywayz..coming back to people..
Motto: Do NOT expect anything.It will always hurt.
hmmm..its funny you know, till sometime back I never believed this....but now I guess i do....
Books make good friends, though.:D
Take an imaginary situation.I am in need of help.Major help.
Who will I turn to?
bus...I truly cannot think of anyone else who I am sure will go out of his/her way to help me out.....and that makes it extremely funny.
like there are millions of people on this planet but only 3 people for me...look at earth , it is sooo crowded with people, each one living his own miserable , lonely life...
But then I have 3 people...hmm...maybe a lot of people do not even have 3 people they can easily call their own.
hmm..thats indeed a possibilty.
I frankly am in favour of >2 kids....2 is wayyy tooo less....
Like if i wonder who other than ma and dad will be there for me....I cannot think of a second name....
Bhai and then full stop.
i need to get out of this mood.
Life is as complex as I make it.
Life is as sad as I make it.
nuthing makes any sense. I just ned to sleep.:( :( :( :(
Atleast blogger listens to me!*sigh*