So another week draws to a close now...... And what a week it has been......and now i begin to pen down (or rather type down ) the saga that these past few days have been...
I like to begin from the beginning....so...towards the end of the previous week we had a HUGE viva followed by another HUGE viva followed by another HUGE viva....and yours truly studied very very assiduously for each and every one of them. Then came the week end but i was pretty tired and evrything so i did not study...and voila! before i know it the mid sems are sir par! Well one day before the midsems began my friend in college gave me a belated friendship Day gift...a pathetic pathetic viral infection ( we share a lot of things at time including viral infections)!!!!!
So there i was when evryone one was like studying real hard i was down with 102-103 body temperature .Any one who has done or is doing engg knows that Btech mein padhai haapens just a day before midsems so like i had to study...And it was pathetic.
I cant study on the table...my bed is where i sprawl and study.. there i was so totally wanting to just close my eyes and go off to sleep..but naah....that was not to be....
Second day of the midsems was real bad.Okay as you all know i am not Madhuri Dixit neither am i Urmilla Matondkar..as a matter of fact i am not Prerna( of kasauti ...fame) nor am i Parvati bhabhi( of some other fame).See the common thing between these respectable ladies is that even when they wake up in the middle of the night ( obviously coz of some 'darawna' nightmare )their hair is parfectly combed and their lipstick is a shade that can only be achieved if you blend the right amounts of matte with shine...but alas as i said i'm not Madhuri/Urmila/prerna/Parvati bhabhi....... So like when i wake up... i'm more like some girl going for a fancy-dress party as the Wicked Witch of the East. So picture me that way.. so early in the morning that its still dark outside ..pretending to be a human island amidst a sea of books spread all over the bed ,rocking back and forth trying to mug up 10 chapters in Software engg....That was bad coz like i started feeling very very weak....very suddenly actually....and my temperature soared...(myb coz of studying like crazy when i should have legally rested for 34 hours per day).For some time i really felt i would not be able to go for my midsems that day.
You know , sometimes i get this funny feeling that i can make my body listen to my brain...its like i can fool my brain into believing that i am absolutely okay when i am absolutely not....
So there was yours truly, looking like the WWE , on the verge of fainting , muttering furiously to herself: i am okay..i am going to be okay...i am okay..im okay.!!!!
Believe me i can be very very stupid at times!
But my mum and Dad have more sense....they made me gobble up two HUGE chocolate pastries(they were yummmmmm..btw) +one HUGE parantha+one HUGE glass of milk .All this at 5 in the morning!!!
Well i did give all the minors...gave them the best i could....and moreover and imporatanly i do not think that i did any worse than i would have done sans fever....
But yes , i do feel that at times, it might have been nice if i werent so ultra responsible and sincere,
Yes , it does sound very cool to say" arrey yaar...meine toh kutch padha hi nahi" .
But as cool or as nice as it maybe it is not me.
Its not like i'm crazy about marks or anything but then i am not doing anything else at home..so i have no reason why i should not do the one thing that i am doin , properly,(atleast properly by my standards). I am very okay with not getting success , God knows i have dealt with it..but i am not okay with not working hard enough .
Okay the medicines+ exams have affected my brain , infact damaged my brain...and i am writin i dont know what!!!!
The next post shall hopefully be more sane.