Thursday, July 20, 2006

A long night ahead

As I begin to type this post, the two hands of the clock in my room , in a rare dispaly of unity have come together to remind me that it is midnight.
All round me quiet.

The only light around is the tubelight in my room,

The only sound I can hear is the low hum of the CPU fan...

It had been raining outside...I could hear the rain till sometime back..now the sound of the rain drops falling against the window glass is inaudible...

My room is a bit untidy, a couple of rough pages are lying on the table , pens, pencils are strewn about...
The bed is unkempt and I wonh't put it straight either...books are strewn all over it...
Today I did all my padhai lying on the floor...yeah! the bai will have it easy tomm..

It is very rare to find me online at this hour..but of late I have been finding it difficult to sleep...I try to fool my brain and I keep telling it that I am very sleepy ..sometimes it works and sometimes it does not...and today,like yesterday , it is not working at all...

Till sometime back I could distinctly smell Fa Lavender talc on myself..but I do not anymore...
I think I very thirsty...
I think my mind is very restless at this hour..I do not know what it is looking for ..what would calm it...All I can sense is unease...
I wish I could just close my eyes and fall asleep....

I think it is going to be useless to try to sleep on my own..I think I will sleep in Mum and Dad's room...
I will go now...I have to hunt for the cot .

I hope you are all dreaming your nicest dreams at this very moment..
Sleep tight.
Ruchi.

5 comments:

Shekhar said...

Wow !! Gold !!! :D :D :D

Hey, I do hope you soon find the peace and comfort that you're looking for. There are phases when one tends to feel restless...don't worry, you're just human. :)

Raam Pyari said...

// There are phases when one tends to feel restles

yess..i gess you are right...:)
Its 12 hours since I posted the post and am still feeling uneasy...
I hope it goes away:)

Sumit Tada said...

I wish the CAT comes soon!!!
Can't bear to see so many of my friends looking like zombies!!

amyth said...

ah..not exactly having nice dreams. i haven't had that in a while now. but i was downloading my "stress busters" when u posted.. i mean..songs ;)

hey..chill. it's just the rains and the gloomy weather around :) all will be fine...

Rebellion said...

Ae bacha!

Kya hua?? Don't worry dear, hota hai!!! Don't just force yourself for anything.. There are phases in life and many a times you feel low & restless for no reason or mayb I should say, reason unknown!

Its okay.. Apne chote se dimaag par itna zor mat daalo bacha!
Ab mujhe dekho.. I go to bed every night around 2/3a.m. telling my own self like a kid that am verrry sleepy and its high time I should sleep.. Still I take at least an hour & endless thoughts to actually make me sleep :(

Tusi fikar not.. Main hoon na bacha.. story sunau??
Sorry, lori nahi keh sakti.. aapko sulaana hai, darraana nahi :P:P

Hope you're fine now bacha :)

Keep Smiling :)
Take care,
Aarti or Dost :)