Back!!!!

I am back!!!
From Madhya pradesh and will post about it later.
I just returned like an hour ago. I m still in my jeans and a light pink+grey+blue+white striped v neck sweater that i bought with Nivindya when she was home some time back.I have not as of yet taken off my pink and white NIkes either.Dad is reading the newspaper and Ma is in the kitchen. The house is quiet....

I did some heavy duty thinking during these past 4 days...dunno why but i wanted to make some sense out of myself!!
why am i here?
am i doing what i really want to?
There are things about myself that i am kinda okay with, somethings that i even like but most of them i cannot stand.
I hate my temper. Its one of those quick to rise quick to fall ones, but thats not the point. When i am angry its very rare that i'll go upto that person and tell him/her hey, you did this /said this and i did not like it blah blah blah...
No I do not. I just keep shut. It lessens the complications.

I worry too much. About little things. About weird things. About things taht have not happened. About things that will not happen. I hate it. but then i think i like it as well....i dont know!!!I so dont know ...i think i am crazy , really!!

I cant hurt someone on purpose. Its like if some does something bad to me, i can't do the same to him/her. I really cannot. I wish i could, maybe one feels better after that.....

I am too much of a good girl.

Okay let it be, the list in head is becoming way too long now:D
I lovvvveeeeeeeeee families where people are bherry bherry close to one another.I just love it!!You know, i think it is so totally important for kids to be brought up in an envoirnmnet where they know that they are loved and cherished .
I love looking at parents with their bachchas when they are unaware or eyes on them.
Its nice to see a little chubby girl pointing out something she finds intersting to her mum and the mum smiling and listening with great attention to watever the 3 yr old has to say...

It so nice to see men taking care of their mothers who are old and are ailing....My mama and tau ji are both fantastic sons. It is soo nioce to see the sons and more importantly the daughters-in-law being nice to the older people when no one is looking...
I hope and pray to God that my parents never need my help per se but if they do, God please let me take good care of them.The same goes for my in-laws in case i marry...

A house full of love, a family full of love, a heart full of love.

I don't understand why families fight over money and land. It does not happen in my family but it does happen elsewhere , right? I really have no idea about what kind of stuff i have or will have but whatever i have, is as much Bhaiz as it is mine.I just do nmot understand this stuff, i do not understand the mentality behind fighting with your family over money.
Money is RUBBISH!
Coming from a normal middle class family , ofcourse , i have been taught to respect money. Anyone whose parents work hard to earn moeny should respect money and all but fighting over money????? i dont understand it.

I love pink:)

Sometimes i wonder about my future....i am not cut out for engg but i am doing it..i never wanted to really, like i was never passionate about it and all but i thought it was a sensible decision ....i still think it is a sensible one...but..
(aah...the 'but' says it all!)

I wonder why people give so much importance to good looks...that also is something i fail to understand...
I am not saying this coz i am no Aishwarya Rai look alike , i wud have had this view even if i were. btw, if i were ash, abhishek bachcha mite have been a prospective grrom*blush, blush*
being an average looking girl i have had my share compliments and comments and i find both equally ridiculous.
Though having extremely good looking parents does not help much!!!:D
I really dont thinks looks matter.Really, they dont!
But sometimes when u try out dresses and u look in the mirror one does sigh deeply. It is a i-wish-i-had-papaz-eyes/i=wish-i-had-Maz-nose moment!:D

okay okay ab boht ho gaya.
it was nice talikng to you.
Tomm is Valentines Day. It means nothing very special to me.I'll just ahve to bear a couple of sidey remarks from road side Romeos when i retun from colg tomm;
however,here is wishing evryone!!
Happy Valentines Day all!!
Specially to Nivindya, Ranjan, Putra, Shreyansh, Prajji,Sudhir bhaiya:)