Saturday, June 03, 2006

Namaste jee
hello jee
okay jee
bye jee

EOP( End of post.)

hehheheheheh
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Added later:

Okay, its official now, I cannot write unless I am feeling terribly sleepy!
*yaaawwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnn*
I have my last practical tomm and I am dying for tomm to arrive cozthen I shall be able to spend as much time as I wish to with the lovely -shovely billi (CAT)

This brings me to a comment I received for the previous post. The fellow blogger seemed quite exasperated with my obsession with CAT and kindly asked me to get a life .
*clears her throat*

Well I guess I should cut paste the comment here if I wish to speak about it but I am wayy too lazy to do that.
CAT is very important for me . I know it is just an exam and in 'real ' life I 'pretend' to be real chill about it. It only here and when I am with my closest friends that I am open about how strongly I feel for this exam.

You know, I know very well I might not make it through , but I'll deal with it when it happens , but I need to work my bestest while I can.
If that means sitting with a Business mag while the rest of the class is in splits making fun of a proff , thats okay.
Very okay.
I cannot think of a sensible explanation for this . I do not give importance to money, I hate the concept of a 9 to 5 job , I hate everything a good B school religiously guarantees.
Yet , invariably , I find myself thinking about CAT.
I might be in the bus but my mind would be furiously calculating 15%of 9845 or something of that sort.
The simple reason why I think and hence write about CAT so much is coz , in simple words, I really wanna make it through.

I dont know if it will happen or not. In all possibility I will be sitting right here five and a half months from now telling you guys that I messed up CAT real bad and there is no chance of anything good happening.

But then there is another, albeit very very teeeny possibility of somethying good coming out of it.
I want to give that tiny possibility its fair chance .

Apart from that, as unbelievable as it may sound , I am actually enjoying the preparation .

uffff....there I go again, I had no intention of riting about CAT!!!!
Anyways I have to sleep now, my mum says I am the proud owner of terribly huge dark circles these days .
A glass of milk which Mum kept on my table about 2 hours ago remains untouched.
I have to somehow push it down my throat(ewwwkkk, chee cheee..i hate milk....),clean the mess my room is in, change the bed sheet, wash my feet, brush and then ....
aaahhhh..the land of dreams beckons

Gunite,
Ruchi.

27 comments:

Unknown said...

I grab the gold bacchha :D \:D/

Nice post :)
I don't really think you need to explain yourself to anyone.. If something's important to you.. IT IS.. Nobody should be bothered about it!!!

Blogging is a space where you pour your heart out and friends know what actually lies in the real u If something doesn't appeal to some reader I think he/she better keep ur trap shut & walk off the blog

And Ruchi dear, as far as your CAT is concerned, am sure you're gonna do great.. absolutely great The question of not clearing doesn't arise, GET IT.. Never say it again... NEVER!!

All the best for all in life,
Am sure you're gonna be a Winner everywhere, everytime :D

Take care,
Aarti

Abhi said...

"In all possibility I will be sitting right here five and a half months from now telling you guys that I messed up CAT real bad and there is no chance of anything good happening."

Dont even think this way Ruchita . Half the battle is won in the head. I know a lot of people will be giving you a lot of suggestions.But do keep your self belief.You call urself a loser and u have already lost.I used to call myself a monkey when I was a kid and now I actually have to check if I havent grown a tail.

You will make it to an IIM.Its not a calculated thing to say , but a thing brimming with belief and faith.Do keep the self belief .

ranjan said...

As Mr. Hitler himself said, the key is believing in urself, not, not evver thinks u wonn make it :), okay ?

And forget spam comments, come on, u temme to keep writing and u get bothered by them, nt fair, hai na ?

Anonymous said...

Raam Pyari jee,

As everybody has already said, you should never let negativity creep in your attitude.

As for me, I wud always say kee I am gonna crack the exam no matter how badly prepared i might be. the fun part is kee if i did crack the exam, ppl wud say 'look how confident he was, and he did do what he claimed' and in case i cudnt crack it, ppl wud be giving me 'dilasha' anyway.

Anonymous said...

great words from great people (i.e.the above comments) so i realy don't think im in a position to say anything except that all one can do is try,whatever happens can always be handled later on.
:)
p.s.why u not online today?

Just Jane said...

raam pyaari behan, doodh peena achchi baat hai, khud ki bhains ki hogi na, achchi bachchi ki tarah peele :D will make u strong and you will ace the CAT fo' sho'!!

Sumit Tada said...

I can so totally identify with u... In my case, i used to say that i m gonna sit 4 all d companies til i get placed and everybody used to tel dat yar why u r havin such negativ thots,u r gonna get selectd in d first one dat u try! I dunno whether its being humble or trying to take some pressure off but it surely helps. Finally, i wud say do watevr makes u happy...

Sumit Tada said...

I can so totally identify with u... In my case, i used to say that i m gonna sit 4 all d companies til i get placed and everybody used to tel dat yar why u r havin such negativ thots,u r gonna get selectd in d first one dat u try! I dunno whether its being humble or trying to take some pressure off but it surely helps. Finally, i wud say do watevr makes u happy...

Sumit Tada said...

And no i hav not cancelled my trip,i m bloggin courtsey one frnd(who gave me his nokia 3230) and airtel(for GPRS Access everywhere). Soon I wil b posting on my blog also.

Anonymous said...

Arre dii,kuch to log kahenge,logon kaa kaam hai kehna :p..and dekhna!ur obsession with CAT will take u to IIM!!..all the verrry best!!!-Ms.Happening!!!

Kaala Kavva said...

tu... and teri billii... huff!!! maggu!!

Daroga said...

lage rahiye ji..... humsri shubhkaamnayein aapke saath hain.....kaash...hum bhi itna lagan se angrezi ke tanik shabd yaad kar paate....
aapka to pakka se ho jayega......itna mehnat un-rewarded nahin jaata hai.....
all the best

Anonymous said...

hii nice blog(well i am just a novice to blogging).Got a link to your blog from friend's blog(sumit tada)
well i am able to identify myself with you.I am also in same situation,preparing for CAT.It's not that i am forced by parents or bhed-chaal that i am preparing for CAT,its that i love the way CAT make us think,make us act....and the best thing it refreshes me and acts as a substitute for some serious study(and not that cramming which we do in academics)
Best regards
Tushar

Shekhar said...

//there is no chance of anything good happening.

Oye Raam Pyaari, ki kar rahi ho...

Have you read about the time when Sudha Murthy was leaving the Tatas to help Murthy setup Infosys, and JRD Tata asked her what she would do when they were successful? She replied that she didn't know whether she would be successful. JRD told her that she surely would be successful, saying "Always start with confidence, never with diffidence."

//I really wanna make it through

There !! You've got all the hunger, and fire-in-the-belly sorta thing.. :)

Unknown said...

Enable the comments for your latest post Ruchi plz! If someone wants something to reach you, they will do it one way or other, you can't run from it dear!

Everyone goes thru phases and many a times you feel like running away, I understand it absolutely, even I've gone thru this phase endless times but trust me.. A talk about it to a friend, her shoulder to cry and the words.. "Don't worry, am here, everything will be fine" matter a lot! It doesn't solve your problem for sure, but definitely gives you a positive energy & confidence to face it :)

I don't know what your problem is dear, what you're going thru or how big it is! I know there are many people who say that others are facing bigger problems.. Yes surely they do and once a while we feel in a better position looking at them but then again.. Only coz they are in a worse situation doesn't get us in a better position in our life!! I just hope you're not alone.. Loneliness is the worst thing in life.. I know, I've faced it! I don't know what am talking or what am trying to explain you...

... All I'd like to say is..
Don't keep your frustration within dear, please talk it out!!!
If you ever need to talk & find no one beside.. M all ears & you know, am a good listener too :)
Please don't worry..
Everything will be juuuust fine & verrry soon..

Keep Smiling,
God Bless You,
Take care,
Aarti

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R said...

thank you Friend, you are ossumm
:)

Unknown said...

What made you delete the post dear?
Hope you didn't get upset & delete it?! Sorry if you didn't like anything I said.. I'm planning to re-read my comment as I absolutely don't remember what I wrote that time & planning to delete it too! Hope you're fine now and fine matlab really fine, not a :) to show ok!!!

Don't worry, Be Happy dear..
As I said earlier.. Main Hoon (My friends get tired of me saying that haan, but hum kabhi nahi sudhar sakte :D)

Keep Smiling,
God Bless You,
Take care,
Dost :)

SUNMAY said...

all the best !

Priyank said...

Hey!
I saw your last post...which you have deleted. I have also experienced these type of feelings during my JEE days.

I believe "muft ki salah nahi deni chaahiye", but, still being a "book mark reader" of your blog and knowing you for a quite considerable time I would like to say something.

I learnt from one of your previous posts that you dont have many friends...have just two or three friends (Real world friend...not cyber world).
In order to get some life you should make more friends...talk to them when you feel bad...writing a post when you are feeling bad doesn't help. You are in engg college...there would be so many ppl around you...just make new friends!

Spend atleast an hour daily in laughing...laugh laugh and laugh. Watch some good TV show (friends zee cafe 2100, seinfield starworld 2330) or talk with real friends, who are funny, laughing is spice of life.

Daily do something you really like to do, for example if you wish to spend some time doing nothing in park... go and do it!
Don't avoid having fun because of work pressure...having fun (laughing, doing what you really want) actually improves your efficiency.

stay beautiful!

Sirius Black said...

Keep the faith in urself :D nd besta luck :D

R said...

dost:heyyyyyy!!!!
//Am sure you're gonna be a Winner everywhere, everytime :D

awww..thats so teribbly swwet:)
thank you for ur wishes .U r ossumm:)

hitler: //I used to call myself a monkey when I was a kid and now I actually have to check if I havent grown a tail.

hahahhahahahaha
hahahhaha

waise aapse iss vishay mein baatz and cheetz toh ho hi gayi.

p.s. i reached for my exam on time.Tuk the EMD test*serious luk*

ranjan://not, not evver thinks u wonn make it :), okay ?

yesss sire!!!
jai hind!


satish: hehhe..thats a great idea
;)
waah! waah!!!!
kya plan hai!

niv: aapse bhi baatz ho chuki!

chosen one: jee, chosen jee..jaisaa hukum!

sumit: thanks ,sumit...I know these competitive exams can be real funy!
and yess, you must post abt your trip!!!!!
jaldi se!!!

creepu beti: thanks, beti:)
thanks fer ur support!


X: maggu tu!
bujj
bujj
bujj


adarsh babujee://humsri shubhkaamnayein aapke saath hain.

thakooo babujee thankoo jee...
aap bhi dudhe nahaye , phule phale!

tushar: welcomme!!!
:)

and all the best fer CAT to you as well...
keep visitin!

shekhar:
//"Always start with confidence, never with diffidence

yess...confidence it shall be...
thanks fer the chotu si ishhtory...always nice to know these things about them great ppl:D


moron jee
1.thank you
2. I hate milk! chee chee

dost:
nooooooooooooo
no no no no
I deleted the post cuz it was wayyy to sadd types!!!!
not because of your comment which ,btw, was terribly sweet!!!!!
and no, u do not delete ur comment!!!!
and yess..
amm okayy now!!!
:)
*asali waali*

sunmay: thank you jee

priyank://you should make more friends
i know i know...but then i do not call those 'we meet when I need your help' type of ppl friends..that is not for me...
it also does not make sense to me....so i stick with the few ppl I can call my own....
//Spend atleast an hour daily in laughing
yess..:) :)
.5 an hours toh boht jyadah hai..but yess. i need to laugh more!!!
advice taken!!!

//Don't avoid having fun because of work pressure...having fun (laughing, doing what you really want) actually improves your efficiency.

yess...very true..will keep ur words in mind...thanks for ur advice:)

R said...

sirius jee: thank you jee:)

Unknown said...

Glad you're fine bacchha..

Keep Smling,
God Bless You..

Take care,
Dost :D

Sayesha said...

Ruchi,
This blog is YOURS. No dhakkan in the world has any right to tell you what you should and shouldn't write about. If CAT is all you can think of, it will be all you can write about. If dhakkan has a problem, dhakkan should get a life and read something else. Grrr I feel so angry... meri behen par attack! :@

R said...

Friend:
:)
:)

God bless you!

sayesa bahin!!!://If CAT is all you can think of, it will be all you can write about

exactly!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
exactly exactly!!!!!!
These are the exact words I was looking for!!!!!

//Grrr I feel so angry... meri behen par attack! :@

meri bahin!!!
*maxxx fond waala luk!!*

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